Well there it is. My sister is married. I spent Sunday crying for no apparent reason. I couldn't tell you what the matter was. Maybe hormones or lack of sleep and no food. Or all of the above. While at work on Monday, I have no idea where I am or what I'm doing. I am going through the day in a fog. Half asleep and half awake. I don't know how I even it made it to work. I just sat in traffic. I guess that is the way to go.
Anyway, back to the wedding. There was one moment that made me smile and that was when one of the grooms cousins wanted to dance with me. It was so cute how it all went down. It made my weekend. I will never see that guy ever again. He is on the other side of the country but you know what, that doesnt matter.
I have been upset with my work buddy because he has been on vacation all last week and I wanted to see if he was going to text me. He did not. He didn't communicate with me in any way until today. I get a text from him b/c I wasn't at my desk when he decided to stop by. Whatever. I am not his beck and call girl. Turns out he just needed to ask me a question for himself anyway. Not like he was actually interested in talking to me. I honestly don't know what is going on with me but I have absolutely no interest in guys whatsoever right now. I dont know what my problem is. Maybe it is from going out on the most horrible dates of mylife. I mean really. They aren't kidding when they say that you have to kiss a few frogs before finding a prince. Hey I can't even get to the kissing part because they are such toads anyway.
You know what is funny is that I actually saw my work buddy and instead of talking to him I snuck past him and ran for it. I didn't want to see him since he didn't really seem to care what is going on with me. I had a real stressful week last week and he wasn't there for me but he was the cause of some of the stress. I mean after that I don't need to spend time with him for a while. I will probably try to avoid him tomorrow as well. I am so exhausted and I have to go to the grocery store after work. Man. Maybe i should blink more I am staring at the monitor as we speak unable to blink. What is going on?
Okay so when and if I ever get married, this is what is going to happen. Destination wedding and someone else plans it and cleans it up. I mean really this weekend really kicked my ass. They are so emotional. My mother turned out to be the typical diva I expected. Needed all of this attention. I couldn't stand her. Like I really couldn't stand her. My dad makes mountains out of mole hills. I ended up yelling at him. I dont care go away. I mean seriously. Give me a break. I am going to fall flat on my face at any moment and there will be no one there to help me up. I am on my own. Like always.
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