Okay, so today is friday the last day of work before my vacation starts. Yes, I called in vacation time to take a week off and just cleanse my thoughts and relax. My boss has been frustrating the hell out of me. I just need some time away.
I hope that she reflects on this. I mean honestly I would love a raise and promotion but I dont see her doing that. Only saying she is going to and not do it at all.
My work buddy I'm falling for again. I am worried I will only get stomped on. I think I need to keep my distance from him for a little while. We went out on two lunches this week together so I don't know what's going on with him. Maybe I should just turn off my phone for a whole week and not talk to anyone. I should just unplug my computer as well.
I am very defeated right now. No one wants to be in a relationship with me. My guy friends don't believe that but they don't want to be with me either so they should be able to believe it to some extent, right? I mean what is so wrong with me? Why can men be friends with a woman and thinks she is so great and that anyone would love to have her but they dont want her themselves? They sound like a bunch of liars.
This last guy that I got all mushy over, I met him online whereas if I was to meet him in person I wouldn't have given him a second look or my phone number. What does that say about me? Maybe I have a really large ego or something? I dont know. I am feeling like a loser and it sucks. I need some time to relax and come up with my new plan. My baby plan. I think I have my names all sorted out now.
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