... and the end result

Alright, alright. After dating a grip of guys these past few months here I have decided that I do not like men. Yes I am attracted to men and I am heterosexual but I do not like men. They suck. Large babies who want someone to take care of them but also want to boss her around. Now who has time for that?
Have you ever found yourself in a situation where you are on a date and this guy is talking to you for a while. You are sitting there thinking to yourself, "now how the hell can I get out of this as quickly and painless as possible". I know it may sound mean or rude or whatever but why do I feel like I owe it to the guy to listen to all of his crap. Most of the men I have dated, have been very long winded. I mean what makes a guy think he can kiss you if you are out on a date and he tells you a story about himself for two hours and you dont get to talk. I call that a story teller, not interesting and not interested in anything other than himself. The end result of that night is a hug.
I also go into a date deciding on what is the appropriate way to part ways with this guy. If we go out for coffee that's a hug. Dinner might be a kiss a hug or handshake depending on how he behaves. Sometimes I just like to get to the parking lot and run away. I just wonder why these men think they are so great. I am totally confused. Nothing that they say or do is wonderful.
One guy had to keep telling me how everyone at work thinks he is the best guy ever. Okay here is the deal, he works in IT all he does is fix the computer problems nothing interesting as far as personality. I mean really who cares if people at work like you. People at work like what you do for them at work not anything else. It's all selfish and artificial. Please get it straight.

After all of my dating the end result is I do not want a man. I have always known that I do need a man but I thought I wanted one. Now I know, I do not want one. If I have to listen to a man boast about himself for the rest of my life, I'd rather not do it. I can take care of myself and adopt children. I do not need to worry about some grown man's feelings and handle him tenderly. That is so lame. I am over it.

If "the right guy" comes along, which looking at my generation doesn't looking like a possibility, I will change my tune but I have gone through so many years of experiencing garbage that "the right guy" couldn't possibly be hiding. He is a figment of my imagination and I have been ruined by fairy tales and romantic comedys. Things don't happen like that in real life. No one is going to save you. You need to save yourself. Don't expect anyone to take care of you. Take care of yourself. There is no reason for a woman to ever depend on a man for anything and that is the day we live in.