After having yet another discussion with Zack. I am ready to just stop getting my hopes up with him. He keeps referring to me as a friend and I am really tired of it. I keep trying to spend time with him hoping things will change and he will want to be something other than friends and that's not working. I don't think I can get what I want out of this relationship. Now what do I do? I don't want to be entirely mean and just cut him out of my life completely. I don't like thinking that there is something there when there isn't. What is the best way to approach this?
I am trying to think of a plan. He wants to go to lunch together once a week. I guess I could think of him like my dad. Someone trying to have a relationship with me for themselves not for me. Maybe the more I dont engage with him he will leave me alone or do something. I have no idea. I am so tired of him. I get so frustrated. I go back and forth on this subject and it has been like this for years. I am at a loss. I don't like the idea of getting rid of him entirely. Maybe with me being on this new medication, it will be easier for me to disconnect myself from him.
I just really dislike being referred to as a friend or just friends or friends only. Like it needs to be reiterated. I know it does because I get really confused but I dont want to be just friends and I am getting confused because he isn't consistant with the whole thing and he's not honest with his feelings.
I have to type this out because maybe then i will be able to sort out my thinking and come a to decision. Now that I am in a better place about things maybe i can come to a solution.
Get it in your head my dear. He doesn't want anything to do with you romantically. he isn't ready or interested in a relationship.
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