My Friend and I are on Speaking Terms, Yay!

Okay, so last week I text my friend that I haven't been on speaking terms with. We are having lunch tomorrow to catch up. Thank goodness. I am so looking forward to it. Today he stopped by and we chatted for a while. It was like old times but better. He looked at me differently. He looked like he was in love. I loved that look on his face. I can't wait to talk to him. We might have to actually talk outside of work over dinner or something.
He came by and I told him about the condo and stuff and he told me he just moved recently himself. He told me about his weekend. The whole thing started because I wanted to show him my brand new shoes which I am in love with. He liked them too. It was very nice to have him around.
Okay so I am not going to tell him that I'm in love with him, so I am making a list of all the things I want to tell him. I really want him to just take my hand and tell me that he missed me. If he doesn't then I am going to have to do that to him and I am not sure how he is going to take it.
I am so excited.

online dating

Okay so I have been participating in online dating. I honestly do not see how anyone could be successful meeting someone on the online sites. I have gone out with the psycho stalker, the slut and the flake. I drive 30 mins to go meet this guy at 930 pm because he doesn't get off of work until 8pm. I get to the restaurant and I manage to get a parking space right in front so I think to myself great this is going to be an awesome night. I get there and I do not see him so I text him saying that I am there and asking where he is. I get a text back from him 10 mins. later saying that he is still at work and he will call me back later.

I have a question. Why would he even bother calling me later when he can't bother to call me in the first place to let me know that he is working and cannot meet me. I get ready and drive out there for nothing but to drive back. How difficult is it to call someone and let them know that you can't make it. Why do I have to ask you if you are there when you said you would be? I really do not understand and when things like this happen it just further confirms why these men are single, clueless.

I have only been on this dating site for a month but I do not think I will be successful at this rate. I met one guy who I kind of liked but he is just not in a place in his life where I want to deal with him. He needs to get on his feet finiancially. There is something very unattractive about a grown man who doesn't know how to manage his money. You know what I am saying. He had to cancel a date because he spent his money on tattoos and could afford to take me out. I mean really. What kind of guy is that. I dont know what I am doing but I don't think that I need a man. The only thing I need from a guy is sex and offspring but other then that I think I am ok. I am not seeing a benefit for having a guy. They are very sensitive and wishy washy. I haven't found one that is even worthy of my time. I think that I am a prize, an awesome person and I refuse to settle for crap and that is all that is being offered on the online dating sites. CRAP!

I don't know why certain folks determine someone's happiness based on their marital status. I mean I had a woman tell me that something was wrong with me because I am a beautiful woman and I am single. Just because I am single it lead her to believe that I am gay. Now, if I can't stand men why would you think I could stand women. They are drama. I am so good off of this. I don't have faith in man kind. I am not sure where people meet people anymore. I haven't been successfull. Men tell me that I am intimidating because of how I look. I can't help how I look. That is just me.

I am over this.

cinco de mayo

My favorite food is tacos. I love mexican food period but on the one day that it is absolutely necessary, I brougth lunch. No tacos for me today. Chipotle would be nice.

Okay so i have really hurt a man's feelings. I am so excited about it but he wont talk to me anymore. I don't know how to get him over it but it gives me control/power over him. I love this control bit and he looks at me with such adoration and love. i have no idea what to do with him.