Monday

Mixed signals.  I guess it's a great thing to have someone who wants to spend a lot of their free time with you.

Yet another high expectation

1. being taken advantage of because I am capable
2.

I'm ready for lunch... who invited her...

Okay, so who invited stalker to the lunch.  i mean honestly i dont like this person.  she is trying to find ways to weasel herself into my life.  she is so unhappy in her own life that she feels like she needs to copy me to be someone.  i do not like this.  parking next to me. copy
I really don't understand why someone doesn't have her own sense of self. off with her head is all i have to say about that.

Braggers

Okay, can I just say that I am more than tired of listening to people brag.  I say I have a not so good lunch someone has to brag about how awesome their lunch is.  I say how cold I am in my office and someone has to mention how nice, warm and toasty they are resting at home.  I mean honestly.  Am I just surrounded by assholes?  I owe money on taxes someone brags about how much money they are getting back.  I can't afford a vacation so someone says how often they are going on vacation and where and then asks me what they should bring and do there.  What kind of assholes are these?  My brother, sister, mother and the jerk who is supposed to be my friend at work.  I mean honestly what kind of people are surrounding me?  Jerks.

Gossip Queen

It is always interesting to hear from someone else how my life is going.  Apparently, I have a stalker fan in the office.  This woman is obessessed with me so much that she has started to invent stories about my life and share them with several staff members in the office as if they were fact.  In addition to the storytelling, she has also decided to copy my personalized ringtone on my cell phone and the decor in my office.  Now, I am not the kind of person who is flattered by people who copy me.  I find it annoying and strange.  I keep imagining that this is going to turn into that movie Single White Female.  Now that is freaking me out. 

The time change has been in my favor.  I feel so much better with daylight savings time.  Like I am back on schedule.  Check this out, today is a guy's birthday who i havent dated in over two years.  How or why I remember his birthday is beyond me.  The other thing I don't really understand about myself is why I feel the need to text him Happy Birthday.  Especially since this is the guy that never called me after we spent a weekend together.  Something is wrong with me.

That's okay.  Something can be wrong with me.  I am still in love with one of my good friends.  I don't plan on doing anything about it.  He knows about my feelings and doesn't share the same feelings what so ever but he hasn't stopped being my friend.  I don't really understand it but whatever right.  I guess a part of me wishes that he would change his mind about me and decide to date me.  When and if that time ever comes.  I don't think I would be interested in him.  That is how warped I really am.  I like to chase not be chased myself.  Control issues I assume.

I haven't gone on a date since that super chatty guy that was spitting food on me and in my glass when he was talking.  Not a good time.  He was real into me and I wasn't into him at all.  I wish that this was the year where I finally meet a guy that I am interested in that is also interested in me.  Who knew that this would be such a challenge.  That's because I really dont like many folks.