Sunday, August 14, 2011

Dating Race

Okay so I have been dating again after taking a break for several months. I have gone out with a couple of guys and why is that all it takes to remind me why I stopped dating in the first place?
Zack
I went out with Zack and he wanted to meet and have coffee at the santa monica 3rd street promenade just after 6pm on a Thursday night. I thought great we can have coffee and talk and grab a bite. Okay so I get there and we didnt get coffee we didnt get food and talked for about 2.5 hours. Now, I found this very inconsiderate. I really didn't get to talk i basically listed to his big mouth tellme stories and talk about himself. My way of thinking is if you want me to listen to you get me a drink or something to eat it is during dinner time. I didnt enjoy that at all. I did agree to go out on a second date but he cancelled the day before and now we are planning our next date on Tuesday. He wants to walk around Westwood and talk. I walk around Westwood five days a week since I work in Westwood. I am going to cancel. I don't want to listen to anyone anymore. I have reached my limit.
Doug
I went out with Doug and had an excellent first date. He was great. We met for coffee and actually drank coffee. Then we went out for dinner and had awesome sushi. I really enjoyed it. We even had a kiss at the end of the date. We planned a second date a week later and that was a total bust. He didnt give me a hug or kiss hello. He barely spoke to me or engaged in coversation. He only wanted to argue with me about things and make offensive comments. He took me to dinner and a movie. The dinner was diner food. Which I wasn't a fan of. It is all fried food and I explained to him that i needed a drink to unwind from my day and he takes me to a diner. He obviously didn't listen to what I said. The last guy that took me to this place pissed me off. The memory was there. We get to the movie and he keeps changing seats because he has to be in the middle. i dont know what that matters. I thought he was weird. None of this wierdness came out in the first date. He then continues to call himself a "self proclaimed genius". This guy had a nose full of boogars. Wouldn't a genius figure out a way to clear up his nose so his date wouldn't have to look at that? Anyway, he didn't talk, try to hold my hand or kiss me. I honestly don't know what happened but oh well.
I want to be mad at someone and there isn't anyone. I don't like any of these guys. Lame and Lamer need to go. It is amazing to me how someone can be attractive on paper and then in person they are just awful. I honestly don't think that I am being unreasonable or asking for too much in a companion. Oh well.
Doug and I dont have another date scheduled and I dont think we will. I didn't get any friendly vibes from him at all.

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Tuesday

I am so tired of listening to caddy old hags complain at work. I mean take life by the horns and change your outlook in situations in order to be happy. I mean honestly I dont give a shit about any of this he said, she said stuff.




i dont want to burn any bridges but i really cant stand anyone today. closing my office door doesnt seem to help folks still wanna talk to me. i say that im not feeling well and they dont care. maybe i should call in sick.




i would love a better way to deal with this challenge. i am thinking prescription drugs.




i'm feeling better now that i went to the baby shower at work. man, i was so not feeling it.




feeling real shitty so all kinds of negative things surface. Like about how im still single and how the last dude was all on my jock for a week and now i havent heard from him in over a week. out of sight out of mind. loser.




okay so time for new goals.. Now, let's think about this.


Wednesday, January 12, 2011

BHIP

Okay so today is the third day of bhip and we had our assessment. I am heavier than I thought I was. The good thing is that this is a starting point for me and now I can keep track of my weight better.

Sunday, January 9, 2011

Happy New Year

A week into the New Year and I feel great. I start a new fitness program tomorrow so that should be very interesting and difficult. My good friend has suprised me with his behavior this week. We didn't have any plans to spend time together but he did stop by to chat with me a few times. I'm not so sure what's going on with him but he is different somehow. Happy to see me. He couldnt stop talking to me and he lit up when he saw me. The other day we were talking and we were sitting real close to each other and we had a moment. He leaned in and looked deeply into my eyes then caught himself and backed away and left.

Not sure what to make of it. I really want to think that he has feelings for me. I dont know what is going on. I love him.