Great First Date

Wow, so I have finally gone on a great date. It only took 50 awful dates to get to one great one. At first I wasn't sure if I wanted to go on a full date with him so I planned on coffee with an option for sushi afterwards. I call it a pass or fail date. Met him up at Peet's coffee I have never been there before so I wasn't sure where exactly it was on Ventura Blvd.

I live a few minutes away from the coffee shop and I get a text message from my date as I am getting in my car saying that he is already at the coffee shop. I tell him I'm on my way. On my journey down there I totally pass the coffee shop because the sun was right in my eyes. I had to call him and ask him for his help on where it was. I knew the date was going to be great because I didn't find it and that isn't like me at all.

I finally arrive at the coffee shop and there he is standing out front. I am a little nervous because I am not sure if I am going to be attracted to him or if he is going to look like his picture. I walk right up to him and say hello and greet him with a hug. It was nice. We order our drinks and sit at a table. No one is at this place. It isn't as popular as starbucks or coffee bean. I love coffee bean. We sit down and automatically have a great confersation. We get to chatting for a while and he asks me if I am hungry and I say yes. We walk to a sushi restaurant from the coffee shop and have some good sushi and lots of great conversation. We were just yaking away. After dinner, he wants to go to a movie so I tell him he can't talk to me in a movie and he says well yes thats true. We go to the mall to people watch and the mall closes early so we go to the movies at the mall. It was great. Our movie was cute and I really loved it. We had a great time together in the movie theater.

My favorite was when he was trying to build up the courage to hold my hand. He puts up the cup holder thats dividing us in our seats. Then places his hand right next to my leg. I was wondering how he was going to do it. I kept waiting. He just got his hand closer and closer and I eventually just took his hand. It was very cute. Then he leans in to me and tells me that I smell nice. I say thank you. Then he nuzzles my ear. He finally kisses me and we kissed maybe four times in the theater. He isn't a good kisser but we can work on that. :-)

We left the theater and kissed in the parking lot. It was such a fun date I couldn't believe it. I just wanted to spend more time with him but it was late. We didn't schedule a new date afterwards but I had a feeling that he was going to call me to schedule a second date.

Today, this afternoon, I got a call from him to set up a second date. We are going again on Wednesday. He said Wednesday or Thursday I chose Wednesday in hopes that we can make plans over the weekend.

Very great first date. Never thought it possible.

My sister's wedding last weekend

Well there it is. My sister is married. I spent Sunday crying for no apparent reason. I couldn't tell you what the matter was. Maybe hormones or lack of sleep and no food. Or all of the above. While at work on Monday, I have no idea where I am or what I'm doing. I am going through the day in a fog. Half asleep and half awake. I don't know how I even it made it to work. I just sat in traffic. I guess that is the way to go.

Anyway, back to the wedding. There was one moment that made me smile and that was when one of the grooms cousins wanted to dance with me. It was so cute how it all went down. It made my weekend. I will never see that guy ever again. He is on the other side of the country but you know what, that doesnt matter.

I have been upset with my work buddy because he has been on vacation all last week and I wanted to see if he was going to text me. He did not. He didn't communicate with me in any way until today. I get a text from him b/c I wasn't at my desk when he decided to stop by. Whatever. I am not his beck and call girl. Turns out he just needed to ask me a question for himself anyway. Not like he was actually interested in talking to me. I honestly don't know what is going on with me but I have absolutely no interest in guys whatsoever right now. I dont know what my problem is. Maybe it is from going out on the most horrible dates of mylife. I mean really. They aren't kidding when they say that you have to kiss a few frogs before finding a prince. Hey I can't even get to the kissing part because they are such toads anyway.

You know what is funny is that I actually saw my work buddy and instead of talking to him I snuck past him and ran for it. I didn't want to see him since he didn't really seem to care what is going on with me. I had a real stressful week last week and he wasn't there for me but he was the cause of some of the stress. I mean after that I don't need to spend time with him for a while. I will probably try to avoid him tomorrow as well. I am so exhausted and I have to go to the grocery store after work. Man. Maybe i should blink more I am staring at the monitor as we speak unable to blink. What is going on?

Okay so when and if I ever get married, this is what is going to happen. Destination wedding and someone else plans it and cleans it up. I mean really this weekend really kicked my ass. They are so emotional. My mother turned out to be the typical diva I expected. Needed all of this attention. I couldn't stand her. Like I really couldn't stand her. My dad makes mountains out of mole hills. I ended up yelling at him. I dont care go away. I mean seriously. Give me a break. I am going to fall flat on my face at any moment and there will be no one there to help me up. I am on my own. Like always.

Fourth of July

Well, I have had one of the most interesting days. I feel real crappy. Crap being the beginning of my troubles. Anyway, I hate how I have to keep some of my relationships and thoughts to myself. I cant share myself with everyone. I am too easily judged or criticized and I hate it. My work buddy ( who I am in love with) is gone this week on vacation. I have decided to keep myself from text messaging him for a week. It has been quite easy. I haven't text him since last friday. I wonder how long this will last.

I have been busy with my new addition to my family, Beau. I rescued him from the shelter over here. He is the same age as my other dog and he's smaller so it works out perfectly. HoneyBee is very dominant so I think she will enjoy having a little male around that she can punk.

Can I just say that I love having two dogs. HoneyBee likes having the attention but she doesn't like being held all the time. Beau loves being held all the time so there is a balance. I hold Beau while throwing HoneyBee's toy. It is perfect. He is underweight so I am fattening him up. He loves food. His favorite room is the kitchen. Whenever he does something he is proud of he goes and waits in the kitchen for his treat. Isn't he cute?

My sister is getting married this weekend. I dont really have any feelings about it. I find that strange shouldn't I feel something? I guess not. I don't believe in marriage anyway. I don't thinkit works. We live too long for marriage to be successful.

The moment that I decided that I am not interested in getting married or having a man in my life I became happier. I do love my work buddy yes this is true but I don't have to date him or see him everyday or talk to him everyday. Once in a while is enough for me and during work hours.